No-One Would Dare

I have to say it was obvious
as the water surged over her body
and the lifeguard was elsewhere
(up the beach with blondes I suppose)

I have to say I knew she wasn''t coming back
and when you looked at me and said
''Don''t worry'',
I thought ''coward''
but then you held me
and I held you back tightly
and hated myself

It broke all our friendships that day
as the water took her further away
and we each wore that same terrible expression
What did it mean?
We knew what it meant all of us.

It''s just hard to explain.